too many blogs, and musical discoveries.

i have blogs all over the place. it's sad. -_- haha. i just discovered about an hour ago that i've had a vox account since 2006! and i didn't even remember! i got a registration code from someone, when vox was still in beta testing mode. i guess i signed up and just forgot about it. :[

but anyway. i LOVE when i come across good music, especially R&B. i miss the 90s style of R&B. today's R&B doesn't make me bob my head or feel the emotion in the music like R&B did a decade ago.

yes, i know. i'm only 18, therefore i was a kid back in the 90s, but still. music touches everyone of all ages, and i have strong memories linked to several R&B songs - especially ones from the early to mid 90s. in the late 90s, everyone around me seemed to be obsessed about n*sync and backstreet boys. ugh. i tried to get into them because everyone else was, but they irked the heck out of me, so i didn't even pay them any attention. and i just HAD to tell every girl that i encountered in my 4th grade class that justin timberlake was not cute. his hair looked so weird to me, haha. thank goodness he shaved that off and went back to brown.

the purpose of me bringing up the genre of R&B is that i've found the most awesome voices that i've heard in a while as far as rhythm and blues. a group called full of harmony and a singer named jay'ed have filled my void of wanting present day R&B crooners. they have the smoothest voices, seriously. i get lost in the music when i listen to them. although both F.O.H. and jay'ed sing in japanese (minus a few lines/choruses in english), trust me when i say that these dudes can sing. music surpasses all languages. just listen and feel the beat.

Full of Harmony - AROMA

Jay'ed - Sayonara

ええええええ！

DON'T highlight if you don't want to see who got eliminated...

but nooooooooooo i can't believe A.S.I.I.D. got eliminated! NOOOO I loved them. :[[[[[[

i thought they were really clean with their dancing, and they were sloppy a few weeks ago, but they were on POINT last week and this week. sigh.

SoReal Cru KILLED it this week though. seriously. fanny pak was awesome as well. the first time i've been impressed by them

okay. i'm done with my pop culture talk for today XD

earlier today, i turned on my pc because i needed to type something in word (i don't have the office suite on the mac), and nothing was coming up on the monitor. i thought it was the monitor going crazy, but my dad was like, "i think the harddrive is dead" and this is me in response:

"WHAAAA?!?!?! NOOOOOO"

i mean, all of my precious artwork, random crap and family photos from 2003 until now is on there! that's like, 40gb! i had been begging him to get an external HD for a year now, and he hasn't. :[

but fortunately, one of our memory sticks were dead, that's all. phew. so now my dad is going to get an ext. HD now! YAY!

AND OMG.
THE DARK KNIGHT IS COMING OUT TOMORROW.

WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS MY EXCITEMENT.
(i know my parents want to kick me in the mouth every time i'm like, *SQUEEE* when a commercials for TDK comes on haha)

• Music:janet jackson // all night

growth.

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preparing., originally uploaded by aestheticheart.

some new photos from the roll i got developed that was in my yashica 124g. came out much better than the first roll! now i just need some friends to help me out on a concept i have for a new photoshoot...

dang. i wish i could develop my own color photos.

といき。私はねむりです。さくやふしだわたしはねいましたに午前２：００。べきごすい、でも。。。どうかな。おもしろいしるわたしはなかまはずれ。

translation: sigh. i'm so sleepy. i didn't go to sleep last night until 2:00a.m. i should take a nap...but i don't know. i feel like i'll be left out of something interesting.

for anyone who sees this and is way better than me in japanese, please don't laugh! :P i suck, and i'm just learning. and i know i didn't conjugatethe verbs right, but meh. i'm sleepy, as i've explained above. i just wanted to write something since i've started to learn hirigana. i started out learning with romanji....now i know that was a mistake. oh well.

and wtffffff. NO JOB YET. I AM MAD. I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK TO THE DAY CARE CENTER. NOOOOOOOOOOO.
that was too much work for only minimum wage. i swear, when i worked there, every sound i heard i thought was a crying baby. -_-

i had applied for a photo intership with a photograher who works downtown, but she emailed me back and said that they had already picked someone. she said she thought my work was beautiful though. sigh. :/

and i don't want to work at target, jewels, cvs, sears, etc. the only place i'd want to work atthat isn't art related would be borders, because i spend my whole life in that store! haha. i'm in there for hours when i go.

but yeah. if i don't get a job soon, it looks like i'll be heading back to the dreaded day care center.

p.s. don't get me wrong, kids are great, but that job was stressful. you can help but to be when you have 3 kids who are learning how to walk all at the same time and like to hit their heads and their moms are all like, "OH NOOOO MY BABY! WTF ARE YOU DOING T&T^&^&#%R^Y!" it's like, dang. kids injure themselves. that's what they do. they were fine. they cried for like, 5 seconds and got distracted by something shiny/bright/colorful/musically attractive and went on about their business. the only reason why we told you is because we have to notify you and fill out an accident report because the state of Illinois require us to! other wise, we would save our souls and not tell you so you don't go off on us like a Demon Mom. grrrrrrrrr.

yeahhhhh. bad memories. at least i got an hour lunch break and got to hang out on the benches with the beautiful scenery by the lakefront and see the skyline.

あなたわ樽いつだってわたしのきです。あいしてる、ちよ。あなたわしるわたしわあいました、でもあなたここしる。わたしわゆめあなたわ。ちぎり。

eeee. got my fall schedule! i'm so freakin' excited. i went to SAIC's artbash today, and i got to see two of my teachers. they seem pretty cool. artbash is a art showing/gallery of selected works of freshman in the first year program. a lot of the stuff was really amazing, and i don't know how i will ever do anything on the same level as what i saw today....art school is gonna kick my butt you guys.

but the whole discussion with the professors reassured me. i'm not as scared about the first year program as i was before. but one of my teachers made me feel better when he said, "just embrace your inner dork."

and i have to agree, dude.

anyway, here's my schedule for anyone who cares:

Mon - Research Studio I (Hall) 9AM - 4PM
Tues - World Clt/Civ Prehistory - 19th (Merkle) 1PM - 4PM
Wed - FYS: Literature of Witness (Durgin) 9AM - 12PM; SAIC Wired: Cult/Comm on WWW (TBA) 1PM - 12:30PM
Thurs - Core Studio Practice (Isenstein, Papish, Lacy) 9AM - 4PM
Fri - Int Photographic Image Making (Bilal) 9AM - 4PM

wow. i haven't written in here in over a year. it's been a while, blogger. i think i need to reestablish our relationship.

it's senior year, and i am ready to go. i've sent in my deposit to SAIC and i'm super excited. i'm going to schedule my fall classes tomorrow. hope i don't get too intimidated by the artsy fartsy kids. either way, i'm super excited.

since SAIC will suck my parents' pockets dry, i am trying to save them at least a couple thousand dollars by trying to CLEP out of some classes (american lit, intro to psych and english composition [if i do horrible on the AP exam]), so i'm trying to find some study material on amazon and college board's website.

feel so weird being on the verge of becoming a college student. felt like i was in 8th grade just yesterday.

SAIC is super conceptual, and i am afraid that i won't be able to explain why i do what i do. i mean, i take photos because i see something that i think is beautiful/cool/interesting, but i can't give that reason everytime there's a critique. at the same time, i also can't come up with some pretentious reason like, "the color and lines depict the sorrow and pain of the children, blah blah blah" i can't be deep like that. sometimes i think i should've went to columbia where they're more commercial based and don't care why you do what you do. as long as it looks good, you get a thumbs up.

i really hope i'm wrong. sigh.

workin' woman.

I GOT A JOB. I GOT A JOB. *dances*

(above picture is of me and my friends playing with bubbles)

I'M SOOOOO HAPPY. i was just sitting up here, searching for some summer jobs on craigslist and one of the counselors from my school called. she said that i had gotten a job through the city's kid program, but i turned it down because it was everyday, and my class at columbia is tuesday and thursday. so i hung up and told my parents. but my mom and dad were like, "CALL HER BACK! maybe she'll be able to work something out!" so i did, and she said that i'd still be able to do it! YAYYYYYYYYYY. God is good. ^_^