i love life.

i'm such a lame...

so i lost my CTA card, and i sent off for a new one, and when i got it today, i lost it again. sigh.

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dancing through the house while blasting music is the best way to spend a friday evening. try it - it's pretty exhilarating.

listening to: copeland - when you thought you'd never stand out

"Oh that is so lame! Every hot girl who can aim a camera thinks she's a photographer. Oooh! You took a black & white picture of a lawn chair & it's shadow, & developed it at Save-on! You must be so brooding & deep!" - Stewie Griffin

haha.
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today was much better. in film study, my group got an A on our project, i'm pretty sure i aced my spanish quiz, and i got a B on a history quiz that i didn't even study for! PLUS penn state said that they like my grades/ACT score, so i was too excited when i heard that.

things are looking up. :]

i want to punch a wall.

i'm glad i joined band this year, 'cause if i had joined back in freshman year, i would've dropped out of band because of mr. a.

we have a city competition coming up next month, so mr. w wanted mr. a to come in and see how we sound. he told me that i suck and that i am lazy because my elbow was resting on my knee and i wasn't sitting up straight. it's like, FIRST OF ALL, when i play by myself i get nervous and i sound as if i've never played the clarinet before, SECOND OF ALL, i have scoliosis, so i don't have the best posture in the world. i don't sit lopsided on purpose! i was so mad at myself and at mr. a by the end of class, that i was crying and a classmate had to calm me down.

he didn't have to call me out like that. everyone was saying that he was playing, but he sure didn't sound like it. i can't STAND people like that - who are mean, but uses that as humor. it gets on my friggin' nerves. i don't want him to come back. but i have to endure it all over again next wednesday/thursday. yay for me. -_-

p.s. maybe i'll "accidentally" forget to set my alarm clock and miss 1st period. i think i'm gonna seriously contemplate this...
p.p.s. i lost another pound. :D

random thoughts.

is it healthy that i've been listening to anberlin's "cities" almost non-stop since i got it on the 22nd of february? i swear, when i get a new CD that's absolutely amazing, i listen to it obsessively. AND i didn't get to see anberlin when they came to chicago - the show was sold out. dang. but anyway...

i went to my grandmother's house today, and she was being especially nice. i mean, not that she's mean or anything, but she kept giving me hugs at random times (for instance, i go into the refrigerator for a pop, and she chokes me around my neck and gives me the tightest hug ever. this also occurs when i went to pick up a magazine from the table and when i was eating). i think she was trying to show that she loves me. but i knew that already, and i appreciated it. :]

i lost 5 pounds! i'm happy. for all of february, i was doing a fast with my youth church - i gave up junk food. oh my goodness - it was BRUTAL. for some reason, everyone just had to be selling chocolate and girl scout cookies as soon as my fast started. but i prayed a LOT, and it helped! i haven't even eaten that much junk food since the fast ended. yeah...so it all ended with me losing 5 pounds in the process.

gahhhh. summer quest + scholarships = stress and procrastination! yay! *sigh* i'm beginning to rethink my decision to major in photography. i LOVE it. it's my passion, but i keep thinking of the whole money factor. i know that i should do what i love, and not do something for money, but still - i need to survive, right? grrr. dilemma.

p.s. in the midst of all of the procrastination, i managed the update and redesign my website: aestheticheart.com