wow. i haven't written in here in over a year. it's been a while, blogger. i think i need to reestablish our relationship.

it's senior year, and i am ready to go. i've sent in my deposit to SAIC and i'm super excited. i'm going to schedule my fall classes tomorrow. hope i don't get too intimidated by the artsy fartsy kids. either way, i'm super excited.

since SAIC will suck my parents' pockets dry, i am trying to save them at least a couple thousand dollars by trying to CLEP out of some classes (american lit, intro to psych and english composition [if i do horrible on the AP exam]), so i'm trying to find some study material on amazon and college board's website.

feel so weird being on the verge of becoming a college student. felt like i was in 8th grade just yesterday.

SAIC is super conceptual, and i am afraid that i won't be able to explain why i do what i do. i mean, i take photos because i see something that i think is beautiful/cool/interesting, but i can't give that reason everytime there's a critique. at the same time, i also can't come up with some pretentious reason like, "the color and lines depict the sorrow and pain of the children, blah blah blah" i can't be deep like that. sometimes i think i should've went to columbia where they're more commercial based and don't care why you do what you do. as long as it looks good, you get a thumbs up.

i really hope i'm wrong. sigh.