growth.

growth., originally uploaded by aestheticheart.

preparing., originally uploaded by aestheticheart.

some new photos from the roll i got developed that was in my yashica 124g. came out much better than the first roll! now i just need some friends to help me out on a concept i have for a new photoshoot...

dang. i wish i could develop my own color photos.

といき。私はねむりです。さくやふしだわたしはねいましたに午前２：００。べきごすい、でも。。。どうかな。おもしろいしるわたしはなかまはずれ。

translation: sigh. i'm so sleepy. i didn't go to sleep last night until 2:00a.m. i should take a nap...but i don't know. i feel like i'll be left out of something interesting.

for anyone who sees this and is way better than me in japanese, please don't laugh! :P i suck, and i'm just learning. and i know i didn't conjugatethe verbs right, but meh. i'm sleepy, as i've explained above. i just wanted to write something since i've started to learn hirigana. i started out learning with romanji....now i know that was a mistake. oh well.

and wtffffff. NO JOB YET. I AM MAD. I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK TO THE DAY CARE CENTER. NOOOOOOOOOOO.
that was too much work for only minimum wage. i swear, when i worked there, every sound i heard i thought was a crying baby. -_-

i had applied for a photo intership with a photograher who works downtown, but she emailed me back and said that they had already picked someone. she said she thought my work was beautiful though. sigh. :/

and i don't want to work at target, jewels, cvs, sears, etc. the only place i'd want to work atthat isn't art related would be borders, because i spend my whole life in that store! haha. i'm in there for hours when i go.

but yeah. if i don't get a job soon, it looks like i'll be heading back to the dreaded day care center.

p.s. don't get me wrong, kids are great, but that job was stressful. you can help but to be when you have 3 kids who are learning how to walk all at the same time and like to hit their heads and their moms are all like, "OH NOOOO MY BABY! WTF ARE YOU DOING T&T^&^&#%R^Y!" it's like, dang. kids injure themselves. that's what they do. they were fine. they cried for like, 5 seconds and got distracted by something shiny/bright/colorful/musically attractive and went on about their business. the only reason why we told you is because we have to notify you and fill out an accident report because the state of Illinois require us to! other wise, we would save our souls and not tell you so you don't go off on us like a Demon Mom. grrrrrrrrr.

yeahhhhh. bad memories. at least i got an hour lunch break and got to hang out on the benches with the beautiful scenery by the lakefront and see the skyline.